Books The Way I Used to Be  by Amber Smith (Author)

"The Way I Used to Be" by Amber Smith is a young adult novel that follows Eden McCrorey's emotional and challenging journey through high school after being sexually assaulted by her older brother's best friend at age fourteen. The story is told over four years, revealing how Eden struggles with trauma, silence, and the impact of the assault on her identity and relationships.

Eden withdraws emotionally, distancing herself from her body and loved ones, and uses reckless behavior, including drugs, alcohol, and sex, to cope with her pain. Her relationships deteriorate, especially with her parents and some friends, and her reputation at school suffers due to misunderstanding and rumors. Throughout high school, Eden battles feelings of isolation and self-destruction.